WOW.


Thats about all I can say about my past few weeks. I went to Chicago, and had a great time. But the week before that I started talking to and seeing a wonderful woman named Charlotte. I met her at school and we started talking, basically making fun of the other people in class. Anyway, she makes me laugh. She makes me smile.

You know how those E-harmony ads have those annoying fucks who talk about "when we met it was like we knew each other forever."? Well, its like that. We talk and its like we have always known each other. There is not a minute we spend together that doesn't make me smile!

Anyway, I am definately feeling this is a relationship (with Charlotte) that has very long term potential. It sounds odd, because its only been a few weeks, but, I can definitely say I am 100% comfortable with this woman. I can talk to her. I can confide in her. I can look at her and feel a sense of calm and a sense of happiness that I have been missing in my life for years. No longer do I feel as if I am not good enough, no longer do I sit and wonder why somebody would want to be with me. I am so comfortable and happy and relaxed with her.

Last night we sat and talked and I have come to a realization that she's just about everything I ever wished for in a woman. Funny, smart, fun, able to have a conversation, and sexy as hell. She doesn't think she is, but I know she is. I tell her every single day. That's her only flaw I have seen, is a worry about her being "not thin". I tell her daily how sexy she is, how pretty she is, how wonderful she is. I hope it sinks in! hahahaha.

I can only hope that thing progress in a very positive way. I like this feeling. I like feeling this happy and warm and tingly in my stomach when I am around her. Its wonderful.